Thursday, August 20, 2020
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(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish
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Dress.
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Hi. Hello.
Happy Thursday!
Happy wellness!
Wear a mask. It’s the law.
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Bernie Sanders all the way!
(Please, write-in Bernie Sanders’s name into the ballot. Thanks!)
Bernie Sanders has my vote.
Ilhan Omar isn’t to be trusted because any anti-Semitic speech is any anti-Semitic speech.
Impeach Donald Trump.
Please, don’t give Donald Trump anymore air time.
Undisclosed armies are militia and Americans’ Constitution reads by the 2nd Amendment to “bare arms” against any unknown entities known as “traitors of the state” because taxpayers are the majority two-thirds and we want to know what exactly our Constitutional dollars go towards so there better be Insignia which states “Police,” or “FBI” or “CDC” and so forth.
No, tear gas is not to be utilized against peaceful American demonstrators because “The Battle of Versailles” wasn’t exactly a battle more like en masse of starving French “commoners” went ahead and by right took over the palace and imprisoned the monarchy and brought the monarchy to the guillotine which is a blade to slice off the head at the neck. Yuck. Yikes.
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Moral to a Tale:
Yesterday, I heard WCCO’s Mike Max talk about a story about a man who threw a tortoise against the wall and the tortoise came back a year later and asked the man why he would purposely hurt the tortoise like that then the radio got turned off and I had to work on graphics. I never heard the rest of the story, however. I can’t stop thinking about the rest of “Maxi’s” story.
Thanks, Max and all of his moral tales gives me hope and strength to go on and conduct myself as well as I can under the pressuring circumstances to work hard and be abused by white people in Highland Park, St. Paul, MN.
Why don’t white women get as abused as Indigenous women?
My secret in life is I listen to WCCO even though I’ve been put down for years for listening to WCCO. I love WCCO. The talks give me hope for our future.
Personally, I hate what Lindus Construction did to our home because our home is destroyed by the incompetence of Lindus.
Lindus will someday end up in jail for the terrible construction work they do.
Anyway, Amelia and Frank are my heroes.
The talk radio hosts of WCCO radio are my heroes because they give me something to think about other than the verbal abuse I endure each and every day.
Thanks, WCCO.
This writer thanks you from the bottom of my heart.
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Pandemics: Man made
Now, I dropped $250,000.00 for my undergraduate degree.
$150,000.00 were in grants and scholarships.
$100,000.00 were in loans which I paid back by the age of 40.
Now, my white private liberal arts education taught me all viruses are manmade and not to ever believe viruses suddenly occur.
So, because I dropped so much money to get educated then I do believe viruses are lab made.
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Bernie Sanders:
Personally, I was informed Bernie Sanders dropped out otherwise I would’ve still voted for Bernie Sanders. What the hell.
Is Bernie Sanders running or not because no news will reach us here in MN?
No one will give me a straight answer.
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Ontrak Inc. Stock:
At 1:41pm
at $67.40
Well, I’m going to trust you with my money.
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COVID-19
Here
Present
Healthy as a Horse
~~~
Narcissists are the most
Emotionally unstable people
Please, stop calling me
A nigger
My soul hurts
The reason why I wail and cry
Is because I can’t handle
The stress of verbal abuse
And constant verbal attacks
Yes, it’s my right
As a woman to
Weep, cry and wail
Every time I’m called a “cunt”
For up to three hours
What am I doing here?
Hoping to be seen
As a complete human
And not just as a maid
Or as a whore
What am I doing here?
Hoping to be heard
Personally, I want to be seen
As an entire human and
Not as a maid
No, I’m not sure why narcissists fly off the handle when you approach them with any type of concern, question or grievance.
No, I’m not emotionally unstable.
Simply, I’m traumatized thus I cry like a baby after two hours of being called a “whore” or a “spic cunt.”
My soul hurts. I don’t know what to do about the verbal abuse because it won’t stop so I cry because no matter how much I ask to please stop calling me names, nothing changes.
After three hours of being called a “cunt,” a “spic whore” and a “slut” and “nigger” then I cry like a baby because my spouse is rather ruthless and takes everything to the nth degree.
Personally, the rage and intense outbursts of any narcissists will scare anyone.
The intense outrage will scare the living life out of anyone.
Yes, I’m terrified of verbal abuse without end and to be left on street corners, parks, bars, stranger neighborhoods and locked out for up to eleven hours.
Personally, each time I get left on street corners and parking lots and parks and bars then I cry like a baby because two years of abandonment have left me raw and on my last nerves.
Personally, each time my spouse drives away and leaves me on some street corner then I don’t know if I’m going to go homeless or get raped or murdered.
Personally, there’s no stability except bouts of rage and more rage and my very life is put at risk by being abandoned and having to walk miles until my abuser calms down and decides I’m gorgeous and worth having around.
My soul is being broken in two.
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No, I don’t care what
The Twin Cities thinks of me
If you see me crying in public
Is because for hours I
Have asked my spouse to stop
Calling me a “cunt nigger”
Minnesota, why are you so hateful
Minnesota, you’re breaking
A Costa Rican’s heart
Personally, I don’t care what anyone thinks of me whenever I cry in public because I’m doing quite well for being put down all the time. I have now come up with a self defense mechanism which is to cry loudly and to constantly repeat the words, “Please, don’t call me a ‘cunt’ just because I asked a question.”
Personally, I don’t care what anyone thinks of me whenever I cry in public because daily I’m accused of cheating when I have done absolutely nothing to warrant constant abuse.
Personally, I don’t care what anyone thinks of me whenever I cry in public because it’s my right as a woman to wail and weep for the soul when the soul gets harmed.
Personally, I don’t care what anyone thinks whenever I cry in public because my heart and soul get crushed with public humiliation as I get sexually harassed for hours by being called a “whore” for talking to any male band member about music, art, life and their wives.
Personally, I don’t care what anyone thinks of me whenever I cry in public because I cry from being tremendously hurt.
Personally, I don’t care what anyone thinks of me whenever I cry in public because I work hard and put in long hours as a maid and indentured servant and graphic designer without any pay.
No, I don’t know why a narcissist isn’t able to calmly talk about anything which they dislike or greatly disagree.
No, I haven’t ever met anybody who flies off the handle and is constantly putting me down and doing their best to kill one’s soul.
No, I haven’t ever dealt with this much verbal abuse.
No, I haven’t ever met anyone who controls the food portions and tells you when you can bathe or eat and how much to eat and when to eat.
No, I haven’t ever put down and put down and put down until there’s nothing left other than to wail and weep and cry to please stop hurting me by constantly calling me a “cunt.”
There’s not one square inch of the Twin Cities, MN where I haven’t been called a “cunt” or “ugly” or “spic whore” or a “slut.”
There’s only misery with the narcissist because their ego is grandiose.
There’s no ego like the narcissistic ego for which their moms destroyed any glimpse of humanity or hope.
Personally, I’m so traumatized by the word “cunt” thus I begin to instantaneously cry in public because my soul can’t handle the words “spic” and “cunt” and “nigger.”
My struggle is real with a mentally ill person who doesn’t stop verbally attacking for hours for asking simple questions.
The narcissist has a great way of making their domestic partner look insane because the narcissist picks apart your very own humanity and destroys the very foundation to one’s humanity.
The narcissist is a child so you have to be real careful with their egos because a narcissist is in constant search of needing to hurt the ones they love because narcissists are missing the real core of their being so they want praise and servitude rather than equal partnership.
A narcissist will go from zero to sixty within seconds and goes terribly irate if one questions anything about their world.
A narcissist is a moving target and rules don’t apply to them as they do everyone else.
A narcissist always wants “special treatment.”
A narcissist puts all of their emphasis on their looks because their inner world is missing their humanity.
A narcissist is a whiner and a complainer and speaks ill of everyone.
A narcissist has no alliance to anyone unless people are sycophants.
A narcissist hates everyone because they hate themselves.
A narcissist is always insecure therefore they make life unstable.
A narcissist doesn’t care if one gets injured or hurt so long as the narcissist feels good about themselves.
A narcissist has no God, country or loyalty except for instant gratification.
A narcissist is tiresome, bothersome and purposely cruel.
A narcissist only aligns with people who can do something for them because narcissists don’t know how to give without wanting something in return.
A narcissist is someone you have to keep up with or they leave you behind because they think their spouse is weak for not being able to constantly have immense output for them.
A narcissist is someone to be quite afraid of, however.
More importantly a narcissist doesn’t know when to stop publically humiliating their spouse by putting them down and calling them the most horrible names.
Personally, I feel worn down and like my soul suffocates.
If a spouse ever talks to the opposite sex about anything then the narcissist explodes and goes on to call their spouse a “cunt” and a “cheater” and the epithets fly out of their mouth for hours afterwards.
The narcissist actually wants to kill their spouse and because they can’t actually murder then narcissists murder the soul by putting down their spouse for up to twelve hours a day when narcissists are charmers and fake nice to everyone else then go home and complain about how much they hate everyone who tries to talk to the narcissist.
The narcissist is two-faced.
The narcissist is cruel and demonic.
The narcissist wants to take every inch of self respect and dignity and grace from their spouse by constantly calling their spouse a “nigger.”
Personally, I can’t stand being called a “nigger” “spic whore” or “cunt.”
The narcissist always thinks one’s against them thus they’re against you.
The narcissist thinks they’re God therefore one has to treat them like a God, except I don’t then I take the brunt of the abuse.
The narcissist only likes others for what they can do for the narcissist therefore one has to constantly praise the narcissist or the narcissist falls apart.
The narcissist is quite vain.
The narcissist doesn’t know when to stop the verbal abuse therefore one has to constantly walk on egg-shells and be quite careful as to what one says to a fragile ego.
The narcissist hates everything and everyone because they’re constantly jealous of everyone.
The narcissist doesn’t ever appreciate anything good in their life so they’re always easily bored and unsatisfied especially with peace.
The narcissist hates themselves thus and therefore they hate everyone else.
The narcissist mind is mental.
The narcissist mind is all or nothing.
The narcissist mind is a personality disorder.
The narcissist mind is weak.
The narcissist is an abuser.
The narcissist is a user.
The narcissist is super ultra sensitive like a child.
The narcissist is incensed and a harasser.
The narcissist is a pathological liar.
The narcissist is a bully.
The narcissist is a gas-lighter.
The narcissist is constantly looking to entice melodrama.
The narcissist isn’t a fun roller coaster ride rather an outright abuser.
A roller coaster ride is fun and safe while verbal abuse is incensed and insane.
The narcissist wants their spouse to be greatly unhappy because the unhappiness of the other makes the narcissist rather happy.
The narcissist is usually a talentless hack therefore one has to baby bad talent and lie to the narcissist and tell them how cool, wonderful and awesome they are until one’s exhausted of stroking the other’s ego.
The narcissist doesn’t ever compliment one’s spouse except about one’s pussy or vagina.
The narcissist is constantly in pursuit of being told they are fantastic and beautiful and amazing when really a narcissist is a soul sucking vampire.
A narcissist isn’t really a person.
A narcissist is half a person who only hangs out with drunken teenagers because a narcissist can’t handle the mature company of other grown adults in their sixties.
The narcissist is Peter Pan who wishes to marry Wendy yet refuses to leave “Never land” for the more beautiful London views and grow old with Wendy who is the only one who will truly love him and adore him and make him an entire whole human except the narcissist always wants to play little boy so the narcissist chooses boyhood for his entire life and lives and dies a miserable lonely death because he knows he passed up Wendy which is the best thing for which will ever happen to him except Peter Pan decides to live the rest of his days with Tinker Bell who is just as insane as Peter Pan.
A narcissist is insecure and they feel powerless thus they take away their spouses power by belittling the spouse and insulting them and harassing them and name calling in public thus and therefore I weep, cry and wail after an hour of hearing the word “nigger cunt.”
Personally, I’m being destroyed for a little bit of narcissistic comfort.
The struggle is real.
Racism is real especially in biracial relationships.
The white person is always more liked and gets preferential treatment by other white people while the narcissist abuses their spouse and publically humiliates them by threatening the relationship and constantly calling their spouse a “nigger cunt.”
My spirit is being broken.
My soul hurts.
I look like I’ve seen a ghost.
I look like I’m ready to die from a heart attack due to the verbal abuse.
Yours Truly;
Gabriel
Tuesday, August 18, 2020
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(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish
Quotations)
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Dress Etiquette.
Dress.
Chapter 26.
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Hi. Hello.
Happy Tuesday!
Happy wellness!
Wear a mask. It’s the law.
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Bernie Sanders all the way!
(Please, write-in Bernie Sanders’s name into the ballot. Thanks!)
Bernie Sanders has my vote.
Ilhan Omar isn’t to be trusted because any anti-Semitic speech is any anti-Semitic speech.
Impeach Donald Trump.
Please, don’t give Donald Trump anymore air time.
Now, I’ll be voting for a one Mr. Joe Biden. Yep.
Undisclosed armies are militia and Americans’ Constitution reads by the 2nd Amendment to “bare arms” against any unknown entities known as “traitors of the state” because taxpayers are the majority two-thirds and we want to know what exactly our Constitutional dollars go towards so there better be Insignia which states “Police,” or “FBI” or “CDC” and so forth.
No, tear gas is not to be utilized against peaceful American demonstrators because “The Battle of Versailles” wasn’t exactly a battle more like en masse of starving French “commoners” went ahead and by right took over the palace and imprisoned the monarchy and brought the monarchy to the guillotine which is a blade to slice off the head at the neck. Yuck. Yikes.
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COVID-19
Here
Present
Healthy as a Horse
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No, my husband isn’t
Literally a womanizer
No.
Yes, within the last two years
Literally my husband
Has been sexually accosted
Because I watched the video
And it’s disgusting
To watch women
Sexually harass
A man
For some reason it’s
Worse to watch a man
Get sexually harassed
Than women
My husband and I don’t
Understand why everyone
Thinks they get a say
In our relationship
And try to put themselves
In between us
Actually, some dynamic has changed
And the more people
Are rude to us
Then the closer we get
To one another
We have a much bigger life
Than bars, hang outs
And drunk twenty-something
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Last night I fell hard
For my husband
For the first time ever I
Realized and understood
The deep fear
My husband has for
Over-sexualized women
Thus he has turned
Into a complete
Male chauvinist
Ok
Women are just cunts
To my husband
So they are also to me
Wow, last night I fell
Deeply in love with
My husband because
He actually showed me
His loyalty
For the first time in two years,
I realized exactly how much
My husband
Is in love with me
And it’s a considerable amount
No, my husband isn’t
Literally looking to
Sleep or fuck or hook up
With anybody
Nope
Let’s put it to bed
Because we have the greatest
Sex Life
We’re extremely attracted to each other
Look, we can barely keep
Our hands off each other
Plus we pursuit
Intellectual, artistic and relaxing pursuits
Nobody actually thinks I’m literally “ugly”
“Ugly” is an insult to throw me off my game
Well done
Being threatened that my husband
Will cheat is only a threat
To get me to stop
Complaining about the creepy women
Who throw themselves at my husband
No, my husband hasn’t ever
Stepped out of
Our monogamous heterosexual exclusive
Relationship
My husband had a woman
Grab his hands and place them
On her breasts
And the bouncer screamed at her
And threw her outdoors
My husband had a woman
Grab his face
And force kissed him
Thus he ended up with Herpes
Bummer
What a bummer
My husband tells me he
Had forty years to choose
Any woman of his liking and
My husband purposely chose me
Because I’m intelligent, smart and beautiful
Yes, my husband thinks I’m
Drop dead gorgeous
No, nobody actually thinks I’m ugly
Seriously, you take one look at me
And you know I’m good looking
Yes, I know I’m quite beautiful.
Yes, I know
Yes, no matter how
Much white people
Call me “ugly”
I don’t feel “ugly”
Therefore I feel quite beautiful
Thus I am
Ergo
No, my husband doesn’t have crushes
On teenagers
He simply feels bad about
How unloved the drunk teens are
No, my husband isn’t insane
To have any type of relationship with
Any teenage
No, my husband doesn’t have crushes
My husband has eyes for only me
Yes, I realized it last night
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Last night the teenage children
Truly scared and traumatized
My husband
For the first time ever I
Understood how scary and creepy
Over-sexualized women are
Personally, I don’t know why women
Are overt about their sexuality
Especially when eight
Dumb teenage girls
Nearly get on top of
A fifty-six year old man
Look, last night my husband
Sat me down
And Explained to me
Within the last 5 years
Young horny women
Constantly throws themselves
At my husband
And he’s terrified of the horny
Look on each one of their faces
Thus this makes
My husband
Utterly uncomfortable
Because he senses
He’s dehumanized
And objectified
And a piece of meat
And a bank account
My husband knows he’s been
Here for the past 40 years
And no one would date him
Or ditch him or end up
Babying dead squirrels
On dates
Or women would get undressed,
Or force themselves unto my husband
While all he wanted was a wife
Yeah, most women throw themselves
At my husband
However, it’s the most pathetic display
One will ever witness
Finally, I feel bad for my husband
Because he has ADHD
And tends to look around
And double takes and triple takes
Because he was brought up
Military and he likes
To be quite aware of his
Situation and location
Thus women interpret
My husband looking around for a wife
Except my husband is quite secure
With me because I’m
No sycophant
My husband says
He’s been waiting for me
For the past forty years
Because he was looking for me
My husband says he could’ve had
Any drunk teenager, any prostitute,
Any stripper, any female drug dealer
Except they all made him
Feel empty, lonely and shallow
My husband likes to threaten
He will go out and sleep with
Everyone he pleases
Except my husband is
A real loyal and true mate
My husband is constantly
Having to deal with creeps
Because my husband
Only draws from his sexual
Energy to interact
So when inappropriate
Women are about
To put their hands
Down his trousers
Then he panics
And realizes he looks
At every woman like
A piece of meat
Because
My husband explained to me
He gets real turned off
By women who move in
On him because
My husband is extremely
Dominant and in control
Now, last night for the first time
Ever in two year
My husband moved close
To me and took refuge
In me
While a group of eight women
Walked by my husband
With smiles as large as saucers
And took a picnic about 50 yards
From us
Then the mentally ill
Eight young women dipped
Their toes in the water
Then suddenly all eight women
Came ashore and got about 10 feet
Away from us and had to be
Terribly noticed as to who
Had the greatest vagina
Of them all
Except the lunatics
Truly scared my husband
And he moved all of his
Belonging right next to me
And kissed me
My husband explained that he chose me
My husband asked me to please
Not follow anyone’s lead
Other than his
Ok.
My husband tells me he’d
Been a bachelor for 40 years
And at any time he could’ve
Taken any wife
Because women have been
Throwing themselves at him
Even some women have gone
So far as to inappropriately touch
My husband’s thighs
My husband tells me to not
Pay any attention to anyone
Especially not his mother
Or bar people
Or river people
Or any other type of people
My husband and I have no
Clue as to why twenty-something
People think they can place their
Two cents about our relationship
Yes, every morning and every night
My husband calls me his wife.
Yes, as of the last three days
My husband drinks less
And is more in tune with me
About the creepy horny
And oversexed women
Across the city
My husband wants me to know
He doesn’t want anyone else
My husband wants me to know
He’s ADHD therefore
Looks around everywhere
Yes, for two years my husband
Has threatened to go and sleep
With other women
Because I have been arguing for
Three major points in the relationship
1. Since I do the volunteer
Graphic design for free
Then I asked for a brand new
Pair of tennis shoes
Every six months
Finally, this week I had this clause
Written into a contract
Its official
I get tennis shoes
And we won’t have to
Argue about this any longer
2. Please, don’t throw it in
My face I have hyperthyroidism
Therefore I have an
Incredibly fast metabolism
Therefore I burn off
Calories by blinking
Please, don’t tell me what to eat,
How much to eat
And when to eat
Since I’m living with some serious
Thyroid condition
And throat cancer
Period
(Working progress)
Serious, the white man before me
Used to make $16.00 per hour
Doing the same job description
As I do and I don’t get paid
Because I’m part of the family
Therefore I must work for free
3. Please, don’t treat me like a maid
In which I have to do all of the cleaning
All the time
For the entire household
Please, don’t have such daunting
Unrealistic expectations of
Me to constantly be a maid
To the entire household
Or a slave
Or an indentured servant
From the moment I start work
At 7:30qm
Right before the stock market
Opening bell
Mostly what I hear are commands
Rather than a shared life
As teammates
Thus finally I have
Somehow made this quite well
Understood that I work
For food and praise
And
My room and board
Mainly covers domestic responsibilities
Not advertisement sells
Or graphic design
Yes, I go above and beyond
Any average expectations
Yours Truly;
Gabriel
Saturday, August 15, 2020
“.”
(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish
Quotations)
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Dress.
Chapter 26.
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Hi. Hello.
Happy Saturday!
Happy wellness!
Wear a mask. It’s the law.
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Bernie Sanders all the way!
(Please, write-in Bernie Sanders’s name into the ballot. Thanks!)
Bernie Sanders has my vote.
Ilhan Omar isn’t to be trusted because any anti-Semitic speech is any anti-Semitic speech.
Impeach Donald Trump.
Please, don’t give Donald Trump anymore air time.
Now, I’ll be voting for a one Mr. Joe Biden. Yep.
Undisclosed armies are militia and Americans’ Constitution reads by the 2nd Amendment to “bare arms” against any unknown entities known as “traitors of the state” because taxpayers are the majority two-thirds and we want to know what exactly our Constitutional dollars go towards so there better be Insignia which states “Police,” or “FBI” or “CDC” and so forth.
No, tear gas is not to be utilized against peaceful American demonstrators because “The Battle of Versailles” wasn’t exactly a battle more like en masse of starving French “commoners” went ahead and by right took over the palace and imprisoned the monarchy and brought the monarchy to the guillotine which is a blade to slice off the head at the neck. Yuck. Yikes.
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Notes:
*) Quickly
*) Time is money and I don’t have any therefore time is even more pressing.
*) Time is more valuable than money.
*) Time is everything.
*) Money doesn’t buy love.
*) Money doesn’t even buy respect.
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More Notes:
Stimulus Checks:
Look, I don’t ever want to be a politician.
Barely, can I figure out the three different graphic design software programs (actually I got this) to match one single Photoshop outcome.
Yes, our systems are outdated therefore I have to jump from graphic design program to graphic design program therefore “jumping through hoops.”
Look, the above sentence is to convey I’m doing research as fast as I can about graphic design and the stock market and etc., etc., etc.
Yes, the Highland Park housewives have promised me their vote.
Yes, nearly anywhere I go I tell everyone I’m an artist and a writer and everyone tells me they don’t care all they want is to see me run for office because everyone feels safe and comfortable with the fact I’m direct and straight forward and I don’t mince words and I’m tough as nails, even tougher than most men.
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Stimulus Checks:
Yes, I have done the math.
The government is required to support each American adult with $800.00.
Yes, the government will pay the rent because Mr. Trump got the Americans killed with COVID-19.
Yes, the government will spent $3 trillion dollars for the Americans.
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No Physical School:
All schools ought to be shut down effective immediately.
It’s a pandemic.
Who cares if our students get behind?
So long as our young aren’t dead because we can’t afford our children and youth to be sick.
Seriously, I’ve been thinking about this decision since March 2020.
If I had children there’s no way I would “throw them to the wolves.”
Nope.
No way would my children attend school in a pandemic even if I couldn’t afford to work, I would rather die of starvation with my children and know we could make it together rather than have my children be taken from me due to other parents’ stupidity.
Priorities, people.
Why aren’t politicians and business people really intelligent about what matters most? Human life matters most.
Why aren’t Americans very intelligent about the history of pandemics?
After pandemics everyone gets rich, except by then 1/3 of the population has seized and a great and deep hole is left upon the heart of any nation.
Americans are idiots about COVID-19.
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All Lives Matter:
Black people are rude.
Personally, I believe black lives don’t matter more than other lives because black people are entitled and racists and mean and cruel and uneducated so no one cares if black people get killed, murdered or dead since black people don’t seem to make much of a contribution other than to complain.
Why should the rest of us care, since black people are for the most part violent, loud and abrasive with the expectation of a hand out as if everyone owes black people something for which no one owes them anything for singing out on the streets like black people are always in “black face.”
My life is worth more than most black peoples’ because I actually worked for my education and earned it and I do the graphic design for our company and sell advertisements therefore I don’t have to sing for my supper because my body and wits and intelligence already work for a living and I contribute as much as 10 people in one single day.
Personally, I don’t believe white lives matter more than other lives because white people are entitled and racists and mean and cruel and uneducated so no one cares if white people get killed, murdered or dead since white people don’t seem to make much of a contribution other than to complain or live off interest or off the government which the government ought to pay citizens to live.
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All
Lives Matter
Especially mine because I’m 100% Maya and there aren’t many of us left.
Now, the Maya prophecies have the Maya ruling the world at the end of 4500.
Only the Maya go on to live and start the world over because no one else seems to have the presence of mind to shut up about everything that bothers them and get to work on gardens, raising children and doing the very best by our elders without our elders being complete assholes to younger generations.
Look, the Maya go on to seed and replenish the world while all the other races murder each other off. We don’t care.
Kill each other off simply keep you ugly faces out of our face and don’t scream, yell or swear at us and don’t murder us because even though the Maya are being slaughtered all over Central America right now, we still do the very best we do and we quietly continue to grow gardens because the Maya have been promised to be the meek who inherit the Earth.
Personally, I don’t care if white and black people kill each other off because the Maya are slaughtered each day and we live with the mass murder of our Indigenous without screaming about the injustice.
Daily massive genocide occurs to the Maya while black Americans and white Americans complain about injustice and inequality here in America while we have politicians to represent us and stand up for us as American citizens and civilians while the Maya have nothing or no one and we starve and fight for our lands while the corrupt politicians murder us for our jungle land to deforest all of our trees.
Wake up, America.
Nobody likes a whiner and complainer and verbal abusers and harassers.
Personally, I think white and black people are demonic and haters.
Black people and white people are cowardly thus a turn off.
The Maya are meek and intelligent therefore we inherit the Earth there’s prophecies and Codex which explain to the Maya exactly what is happening this year and what will happen each year all the way until the year 4,500.
We know what’s going down thus and therefore we’re not afraid to get slaughtered because it’s all been written like a road map for us to follow and understand.
The Maya aren’t alone.
We have the power and blessing from the Gods therefore we’re meek and intelligent beings.
We’re not mystics and fucked up in the head.
We’re mathematicians and scientists thus no one can “pull the wool over our eyes.”
The Maya are so cool everybody else is just stupid about complaining about race.
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Present.
Here
Healthy as a Horse
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When All I Hear
For One Straight Hour
“Fuck you,”
“Fuck you,”
“Fuck you,”
Then I either cry
Like a baby
In public or on the toilet
Because I get yelled
While on the toilet
Yep.
Now, time on the “crown”
Is sacred ground
As well as
Sleeping
The criticism doesn’t ever stop
From the moment I awake
Until I go to bed,
All I hear
Every day is
Every single little thing
For which goes wrong
However, the rest of the
Family must
Take responsibility
For having to go ahead
And put blame
On me
When I’m honest, safe and protective
Yes, once a year,
If I’m extremely sick
With a fever then I do
Go ahead and eat all of
The ice cream in the refrigerator
And I don’t want to be put down for it
Yep.
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VLOG
This is an actual record
To the letter
(With a broken left wrist and all)
Yes, I still go ahead and
Continue to keep a “blog” rather
Than jump into the Vlog
(Video log)
Because whence I go
“Vlog” then oh, well
Life is over as we know it
2020 has been the year
For which children
Under the age of 10
Ask me to please
Be on Television
Because it’s only
Native American little girls
Who tell me they think I’m
“Beautiful.”
Thank you.
Well, the blog
Started out with
Only two people
As broadcast engineers
Well, well-adjusted children
Who aren’t creepy and wear their
Tennis shoes correctly tied
And don’t wander around aimlessly
Without adult supervision
Or without shoes and
Get real manipulative real
Fast and gets rather
Personal with strangers for which
Will get little children in trouble
Aren’t children I trust
Because children are creepy
To begin with
Now, I don’t write to read my
Writing because I don’t ever
Read my writing
Except once for a thorough
Read-through then I
Don’t ever again want
To read my own writing
Yes, any professional may approach
Me about editing my blog
Into a book
Because good luck
No, I’m not ever going to go back
And read any of my blogs.
No.
Why?
What’s the point?
Aside from minor spelling check
Or minor sentence structure,
We all know this
Blog has been brilliant
From the start
Because as an artist
Not ever did I begin
To publically write to have
Anyone see my writings
Because Lord only
Knows I’m a terrible speller.
Yes, a terrible speller.
The entire world knows.
However, what’s saving me from
Brain damage and
Any type of brain deterioration
Is that I’m always able to
Structure the most
Grammatically correct
Sentence structure
With logic and reason
Thus and therefore
My brain’s intact
Mainly, when I have terrible spelling
Or bad sentence structure
It’s primarily because
I’m writing fast to get
The thoughts out
And every seasoned writer
Knows exactly what’s occurring
I’m typing fast as lightening
Not ever have I
Given anyone any reason
Not to understand me
As a writer because
Everything for which I
Have written is done well,
With modern swear words
And the awesome ability
To go ahead and
Correctly in context
Utilize swear words
Eloquently, bluntly,
Directly for the entire
7 million people to understand
As well and as correctly
As possible across the globe
As a humble Maya Indigenous
Not once did I ever think anyone would read
Personally as an introvert
I hoped no one would read
Except this is as public as it gets
This is a world stage platform
Thus and therefore I have conducted
Myself quite appropriately for the times
And for the modern expectations
Of me as a mature adult woman of color
Thanks!
I did it!
I started and finished this blog
In front of the entire world
Yes, as of May 2020 I
Completed ten years of Blogging
And thankfully I didn’t get murdered
Because bloggers are the main
Murdered writers of their genre
Across the world
Thanks, world!
Nearly, I’ve almost been murdered
In MN for stating
My blunt and awesome opinions
Yes, for ten years I kept vigil
Of all of the thousands of bloggers
Who ever so humbly did wrote
In front of the world about
The real life events
Bloggers observed
In their corner of the Earth
R.I.P. Bloggers
Bloggers are more valuable
Than millionaires
Any day of the week
No, I’m not bragging about 7 million
Readership because this blog
Started out with two engineers
Then three of us
As broadcast engineers
Now, the moment I go
Live with a Vlog the
Broadcast Engineers have projected
Five million in the first month
And I don’t want to deal with
That much pressure
Possibly twenty-five million viewership
Within the first year
Simply and only
Because video is King
And
Because I can impromptu talk about
Any subject matter intelligently,
Eloquently and with respect
For all and any opinions
And I look great on camera
Because ultimately I’ve been
Told I’m gorgeous
By anyone other than white Minnesotan
Yes, even attorneys, doctors and engineers
As well as
Tycoons and housewives
Like to ask me what I think
Because I can speak well
About any subject matter
Because I don’t drink alcohol
And I’m extremely well studied
In most subject matter
Like Benjamin Franklyn
And every word I utilize
Makes sense with logic and reason.
Yep.
Yes, I won my freedom
And my life
Why?
Because I did the difficult work to
Write in front of the entire world
As a volunteer blogger
And I always made sense which
The only goal to writing
Is to make sense
PERIOD.
There’s no repetition in writing
Thus I’ve learned to speak
Quite well and eloquently impromptu,
However, I don’t make good arguments
Because I must think of the
Serious and real life consequences
Rather than think about numbers
Or think about points to make
For the purpose to win an argument
Dumb.
In other words:
When it comes to the responsibility
Of economics
Then I have to think of numbers
In terms of real events
How many mouths
Will we feed without
Breaking the bank
Yes, I’m aware once I go
Vlog then the entire world
Will take over and watch
Or possibly only a few
Broadcast engineers,
Entertainment attorneys
And myself
Look, for 20 years I’ve
Fought acne
Because I have a low immune system
While I fight cancer
No, I’m not hideous to look at
Yes, my skin is hideous to look at.
Yes, extremely ugly looking skin.
Yes, the ugliest of the ugliest of women
One will ever lay eyes upon.
Ha, Ha, Ha.
Yes, I mean, real ugly.
Ok, well, let’s move on to
The next lesson
Plus, I’m told by white people
I’m ugly because I have pock marks
So I already don’t want to hear
From the rest of the world
How I’m the ugliest
Woman alive
Because I have pock marks
Because some of my favorite
Actors or actresses
Have either scars or pock marks
Ok, I accept I’m ugly.
There’s nothing I can do about it.
I was born. I live.
Someday as an old person
I will die, until then
Making the bed,
not ever looking
At the stocks
Simply researching the companies
Of the stocks of shares
To sell or buy
Look, researching the companies
Is a complete nightmare
Of being under mounds of
Piles of research
And up to one’s eyeballs
Once one knows
What the companies stand for
Then one goes ahead and trades
Or not
Yep.
With intent and purpose I
Went ahead and green-lighted
The trade of Nikola because
Nikola will change the topography
Of delivery trucks across
The nation
No, there’s no need to have in-person
Learning when remote
Computer classes have higher scores
And more personal approach to learning
And terrific for all students to get their
Lessons done and their homework
Correctly done
For anyone looking to become
A multi-millionaire artist/thinker
America, as adults all money is research
Therefore homework is the only way
To be stinking rich
Because stock market research
Is homework
Which makes millions of dollars
Because homework is work
Yes, in one day t
The boss lost $600,000.00
Therefore I’m here to take over
Yes, in the last six weeks I
Made up $500,000.00
For the boss and his shares
And this week he lost $600,000.00
So I have to start all over again
~~~
COVID-19 Vaccination
Kodak, I’ve known you my entire life
Kodak, our family has invested in you
Kodak, I invest in you
Kodak, I know you
Kodak, you know me
Kodak, you know my family
Kodak, go forth with blessings
And come up with the
COVID-19 vaccine
Look, America
COVID-19 is bacterial warfare
From China thus and therefore
China will be shut off to
The rest of the world of commerce
For the next
100 years.
We don’t allow for the Chinese Hitler
To run the world
No.
The Geneva Convention begins now
China, how could you killed
The world?
Oh, no!
China!
Purposely, I’ll let
Go off $600,000.00 in
Shares in Chinese stocks
And wipe clean the slate
Because China, you, murdered
The world and this is
Considered genocide
Bacterial warfare
No.
The Chinese borders are closed off
Until August 15, 3020
All Chinese students are welcome to
The United States to study
For as long as they wish or desire
All Chinese tourists are welcome to
The United States to be
Respected tourists
For as long as they wish or desire
Have good clean fun
Welcome, to all and any
Wholesome hard-working
Non racists or rude
Chinese Citizens and Civilians
Well, let’s do this right
~~~
VLOG
Yes, I’m terrified
To show my face on
A Vlog in front
Of the entire world
With throat tumors
And acne pock mark scars
Oh, goodness
Simply because
Supposedly I’m extremely ugly
So I need to gather
The courage to jump
Into the Vlog
Except my confidence
In so far as my looks
Has been rattled
Thus and therefore I
Need to jump into
The project like
Jump rope
When I don’t know what to do
Then I stall
Yep.
All I’ve ever heard
For 32 years
Of Minnesota living
Is just how ugly
I am to look at
Because I have pock marks
And acne
Well, life threw me a curve ball
And I have been fighting
Cancer since November 1997
Yep
All I ever hear is that I’m ugly
So now I have a slight complex
And I’m scared to start the Vlog
Because supposedly I’m hideous
To look at
I’m not sorry
There’s nothing I can do
Because this is the temple
The Maya Gods
Equipped me with
Yes, I guess, I’m extremely ugly
To look at
So I don’t know what to do
About how ugly I am
Thus I stall to start
A Vlog
Because I don’t have
Time or money
To do wardrobe and makeup
Therefore I’ll look as I
Do each day
After 4 hours of Photoshop graphics
Or four hours of selling ads
Yes, I fired the boss
And I’m now the boss
Because I will be selling
$250,000.00 worth of annual ads
However, it will take me one
Complete year of
A learning curve
To learn to sell
$250,000.00
To carry the publications empire
On my entire back
The boss is fired.
I’m the boss
Literally, I’m training to be the boss
Thanks.
Yes, I’m actually fair and fair
Being called ugly everyday
Is getting me down
Because my soul isn’t ugly
Yes, I can understand
My temple/body and face
Is hideous to look at
However, I have
An awesome soul and spirit
Well, I just don’t want to put
My face on video and possibly have
The whole world tell me I’m
Ugly because I have pock marks
From the cancer so
I stall because I know
My skin looks ugly
From the pock marks
From 20 years of fighting cancer
Look, I’m considered the most
Ugly woman alive
Because of the pock marks
So the moment I show
My face with the acne scars
And throat tumors
Then game over,
Not only
Will the Minnesotans
Tell me how ugly I am
The rest of the world
Might also jump at that
Except, it’s the rest
Of the world who supports this
Blog while Minnesotans
Don’t believe I can even
Formulate one sentence
The whole world might send arrows
And wound my heart
Because I realize I dress
Like a man
However, I’m all
Girly-girl
When people meet me in person
Then people comment they think
I’m the most gorgeous woman
They have ever been around
Because I’m extremely
Sober, strict and serious
Therefore I have a sense of humor
And I’m funny
Except when I’m sworn at
Or any of my body parts
Badly talked about
Finally, I have acquired a thing
For which
Even so much
Any slight sign
Of aggression
And I tend to squeal
And yell
Like a kicked dog
Because the greatest fear
Of my life
Has settled deep into
My bones and I’m terrified
To get killed or
More precisely murdered
By intention or not
Look, most multi-millionaires I know
Are quite poor
Especially house poor
Yes, I’m warned
The only condition
For me to stay
Is to stop
Screaming
Ok
I have
This week I was flawless
And I didn’t once scream
While left on street corners
Or sworn at
And called a “spick cunt whore”
Ha, ha, ha
Wo!
Wow
Yes, I kept my cool for all women kind
Yes, I did it
Yes, I controlled my emotions
However, I didn’t allow myself to be abused
By constantly saying;
“No, I’m not a whore.”
“Yes, I’m a graphic designer.”
I win because I’m
The sunshine and sunshine
Is a God
Or many forms of gods
No, I don’t ever consider myself a God
Because I pass fecal matter
Yes, I’ve been taught the Maya
Are from the stars and we’re of the Gods
Therefore we’re of the Divine
The moment one sees me
And I open up my mouth
To say something kind, smart and intelligent
Then the entire room understands I’m
The most innocent and safest person in
The room because I don’t allow my ego
To get in the way especially
When one corrects rude men
From refraining from calling
Any woman “ugly”
Or “cunts”
Thanks.
Yours Truly,
Gabriel
Monday, August 6, 2020
“.”
(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish
Quotations)
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Dress Etiquette.
Dress.
Chapter 26.
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Hi. Hello.
Happy Thursday!
Happy wellness!
Wear a mask. It’s the law.
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Bernie Sanders all the way!
(Please, write-in Bernie Sanders’s name into the ballot. Thanks!)
Bernie Sanders has my vote.
Ilhan Omar isn’t to be trusted because any anti-Semitic speech is any anti-Semitic speech.
Impeach Donald Trump.
Please, don’t give Donald Trump anymore air time.
Now, I’ll be voting for a one Mr. Joe Biden. Yep.
Undisclosed armies are militia and Americans’ Constitution reads by the 2nd Amendment to “bare arms” against any unknown entities known as “traitors of the state” because taxpayers are the majority two-thirds and we want to know what exactly our Constitutional dollars go towards so there better be Insignia which states “Police,” or “FBI” or “CDC” and so forth.
No, tear gas is not to be utilized against peaceful American demonstrators because “The Battle of Versailles” wasn’t exactly a battle more like en masse of starving French “commoners” went ahead and by right took over the palace and imprisoned the monarchy and brought the monarchy to the guillotine which is a blade to slice off the head at the neck. Yuck. Yikes.
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Present.
Here
Healthy as a Horse
~~~
Intimate Partner Abuse
Abusers Know Exactly
What abusers do
Personally, I don’t know why
Abusers lie and say they get abused
When abusers are always
The first to throw a punch
~~~
Finally my Harvard
Ivy League
Psychologist parents
did me
The greatest favor
To psychologically
Analyze my abusive spouse
My parents say that most
Alcoholics don’t beat up
Their spouse
My parents say that most
Likely my spouse was raped
As a child
Therefore he has some
Serious anger problems
And chooses to hit me
Yet is quite charming
With drunks and teens and women
And always looking
For attention anywhere
He can get it
My parents say my spouse
Is bipolar since bipolar
Runs in their family
My parents tell me
Not to take the abuse
Too personally
Because my spouse
Is literally mentally ill
My parents explain to me
Most mentally ill people
Are safer than
Non-mentally ill people
My parents say my spouse
Is literally bipolar therefore
I now know the problem
Is with my spouse
Who requires to
Be put on some
Type of bipolar medication
My parents say
Most alcoholics aren’t abusive
Mainly, abuse has to do
With early life abuse
My husband likes to tell everyone
I’m crazy and bad mouth me,
And gossips about me,
however
My spouse’s psychological
Evaluation came out today and
He’s literally insane
According to Harvard psychologists
Okay, I can work with insane,
However, I don’t do violence
Because I’m starting to lose
Nerve endings
My parents say the reason
Why my husband is always
Putting me down and beating me up
Is because he’s not medicated
My parents say the reason why
My spouse lies about me so
Much and tells his mom
I’m a whore is
Because my spouse is bipolar
Poor man
As of today, I once again
Check out of mental illnesses
Yes, I’m a “bitch” because
My spouse is a womanizer
And an abuser
Yep
My parents say
It’s not me
Because I live with
A man who takes too much
From me
And gives nothing in return
Yep.
My parents tell me I’m addicted
To an abuser so I’m
To partially blame for
Staying with an abuser
My parents say I’m in
A bad situation
And anytime my spouse
Is ready to punch me
Then I must call the police
To save my own life
Ok.
My parents say
My husband is an abuser
Because he can’t or won’t get over
The fact he was raped as a child
No, I wasn’t ever raped as a child
So I don’t have the same hang ups
As people who get raped as children
My parents can analyze and understand
The complex gravitas of being bipolar
And a child of rape
My parents say
Most men who were raped children
Can’t control their mouth
And they go on and swear for
Hours because they have a
Personality disorder
So after 11 hours
Of being called a “cunt”
People with personality disorders
Can’t stop themselves
Because they don’t see other
People as humans so they
Abuse to the nth degree
Until there’s nothing left of their mate
Because all a personality disorder
Wants to do is to
Crush and hurt and murder the other
Not okay
For hours I’m constantly yelled at,
Sworn and belittled, denigrated, used,
Abused and harmed
My parents tell me
My husband is causing me
Serious distress
With his violent tendencies
To always want to
Create fear, shame and guilt
The reason why young drunk
People call me “crazy”
Is because I don’t get drunk with them
My abusive husbands doesn’t
Ever admit to his abuse
So of course, I come
Across as “crazy”
Except anyone who’s ever been
Abuse can see through the
Lies, manipulation and hatred
And his mental illness
~~~
The problem with abuse
Is one becomes quite
Traumatized so
One can’t ever fully relax
Because an abuser
Is always looking
For any excuse
To literally
Punch you in the head
Or tear out your hair
Or kick you in the head
Or punch you in the ribs
Or punch you in the breasts
The problem with getting
Punched in the head
Is that it makes one
Sensitive to light
And loud sounds
Even though daily
One gets screamed at
And sworn at
Once you stop being afraid
Of getting punched in the head
Then one takes away
The power of the abuser
Because much abuse
Is threats
To bodily harm
So you can’t be afraid
To take a punch
To the head
Even though I’m terrified
To get murdered
By one single blow
If my husband murders me
Then he must go to jail
For the rest of his life
If my husband puts me in a coma
Then he must be sued
For everything he is worth
Because my husband takes
Advantage of being white and a male
Yes, I now know
How to take a punch
Like a man
Although, afterwards I cry
Every time
You have to gracefully
Take the punches to
The head without dying
So you do your very
Best to protect your head
Getting hit on the left
Temple is the worse
Because you lose your speech
You begin to stutter
And develop
A speech impediment
And you can’t
Quite formulate spoken words
So people think
You’re drunk all the time
Except its physical abuse
Getting hit in the head
Is like watching yourself
Have some degenerative disease
The problem with getting
Sucker punched
In the head
Or kicked in the head
Is one develops
Parkinson’s type of symptoms
In which you can’t walk properly
And you stumble
And your body parts
Legs and feet don’t
Quite properly function
Because you develop nerve damage
So the ability to move
Fluidly gets taken from you
The problem with
Getting punched
In the head is that
You lose feeling
At the bottom of your feet
So you can’t gauge distances
So when you go to step
Off a curve and walk
Then you walk
Like you have Parkinson’s
Tragic, really
However, the abuser cries
And promises they will never hit
You again until the next time
And there’s always a next time
So don’t get delusional
And don’t get your hopes up
Abusers abuse because they like to abuse
I’m starting to walk
Like Mohamed Ali
When he had Parkinson’s
Yep, right now I have developed
Parkinson’s like symptoms
At the bottom of my feet
I have nerve damage
And I can’t gauge distances
When I step off
A curve
Because I’ve lost feeling
At the bottom of my feet
Going from grass unto concrete
Is the worse because
The bottom of my feet
No longer can sense
The difference
Between grass and concrete
So I stumble as
Though I’ve had a stroke
And only white rich teenage
Girls laugh at me
And I don’t care
Only I know how much
I’ve been beaten
And It’s starting to show
In my body
I look good, however
I feel like I’m slowly
Getting murdered
And nobody cares
Much less my abuser
Who is constantly screaming
At me if I so much as
Say “hi” to any man
Other than my abuser
My body is slowly
Being tuned into an
Eighty year old body
My body shakes
With light tremors
And I walk like I’ve
Been an alcoholic
My entire life
Which I barely touch alcohol
However, from getting hit
In the head so often
Once a month
For two years
(Or once a week)
I now have been
Aged by about four decades
And I can’t get the nerve endings
At the bottom of my feet
To reconnect with
My brain’s sensory perception
Imagine, I’ve lost feeling
At the bottom of my feet
Because I’ve been
Punched and kicked
In the head so often
Abusers know exactly what they do
Abusers abuse
So long as no one catches them
Personally, I don’t know why abusers
Like and thrive off of abuse
Except abusers like abuse
So abusers abuse
The problem with
Domestic violence abuse
Is that one slowly
Gets murdered
In front of everyone
While everyone calls you
A “liar” and “crazy”
Only because drunk rich
Teenagers get angry when
You put a stop to
Your 55 year old husband
Getting drunk with teenagers
Or anyone under the age of 20
My husband allows for
Drunkard teens and people
In their 20’s to call me
An “ugly bitch”
Because he loves to see me
Get abused
My husband’s pass time
Is to abuse me
Abusers are constantly
Looking for ways for other
People to abuse you
So abusers gossip
Like old women
And tell lies
However, an abuser
Won’t ever admit
The truth and tell
Everyone the reason
Why I’m bent out of shape
Is because I’m physically,
Psychologically and emotionally
And verbally abused
So I stand up for myself
Recently, I’ve talk to women
And told them I get called
An “ugly bitch” by
My husband’s drunkard
20’s acquaintances
And each woman says she would
Personally punch any man in the face
Who would dare
Call them an “ugly bitch”
I thought so
Yes, women tell me they would
Punch any man for calling
Her an “ugly bitch”
Ha, ha, ha
Yep
Can you imagine a 55 year old
With only teenage drunk acquaintances
When someone doesn’t have
Friends their age
Then they don’t get challenged
And no one puts them in their place
Because insane drunk little
Kids can only kiss ass
Drunk teens are boring
Oh, the teen drunks hate
That I don’t allow
For my husband to
Get drunk with them
And seduce teens
Or be seduced by teens
Because when people are drunk
Then they’re retarded
For some reason daily
I get wrongfully accused
Of being a cheater
Even though my husband
Constantly reminds me
He’s going to fuck a teenager
And such talk ought to put him in jail
Each time my husband tells me
Or threatens to fuck a teenager
I ought to punch him square in the face
Except I don’t resort to violence
Only if I must self protect
Then I start lifting heavy object
And throwing them
Because I’m terrified of
Brain damage
My husband knows I’m quite intelligent
So he has a thing for hitting me in the head
Because I secretly think he
Wants to see me brain damaged like him
My pride and joy are my brains
So my husband is constantly
Punching my head
Abusers don’t seek out the weak
Abusers seek out the strong
So they can break you down
And kill you
What’s the point of being a husband
If all you want to do is kill
Or murder your wife
My husband’s only nice to me
When he needs something from me
My husband easily develops crushes
On teenagers
However, if any man so much as
Says “hi” to me then for
Ten hours afterwards
I’m called a “whore”
Wow.
Vulgar
Yes, I purposely publically humiliate
My abusive husband
Because he calls me
A “cunt” up to
Ten hours a day
Especially when a man
Whispers to a woman
That he thinks she’s a “cunt”
Or keeps telling her
To “go fuck cocks”
Then I loudly repeat everything
He says to me really loudly
For everyone to hear because
If a man thinks he can continually
Call a woman a “cunt” then
He better get used to being
Publically humiliated
Since no man who
Professes love ever does
Such abominations against any woman
Yes, I’m terrified of getting murdered
Finally, I hit a wall
And I’m constantly scared
My body and intuition have caught up
With me and I’m genuinely scared
For my life as I know it
More so than death,
I’m scared of brain damage
Like my alcoholic husband
Who is literally brain damaged
And constantly in a fit of rage
Even if you were to state your
Opinion he finds any excuse to hit
My nerves are on edge
By 5:00pm each day
My husband gets drunks
And tells me he
Wants to fuck 15 year olds
Gross
How am I supposed to feel?
Being told everyday
I’m “ugly” and a “cunt”
And my husband is going
To go and purposely pursue
And fuck 15 year olds
Alcoholics are pathological liars
And manipulators
Alcoholics lie a lot
To cover up for their abuse
If one has a different opinion
Than an alcoholic
Then an alcoholic
Finds any excuse
To physically hurt
Their partner
Then lies about it
Ha, Ha, Ha
Alcoholics are pathetic
In their own right
No, I can’t believe
How many insane
Young Highland Park,
St. Paul, MN
Alcoholics I have come across
Why are rich white people alcoholics
Why are rich white people’s teen’s alcoholics
Personally, I can’t believe anybody
Allows their young and beautiful
Rich drunk or dumb teenage girls to
Hang out at The Monument
Because there’re only
Mainly two types of people
At The Mon,
Drunken rich teens
Or old men drug dealers
Who are literally gangsters
The funniest thing is
Watching a demographic of
White rich drunk teen girls
And their black old men gangsters
Who supply teens with their drugs
Now, I’ve come to the conclusion
That it’s best to get punched
Hard once on the head
And have the abuser relieve
His hatred and anxiety
Then to be called a “cunt”
For ten straight hours
Being called a “cunt” for ten hours
Is like getting repeatedly punched
With no end in sight
Personally, I think it’s
Best to get punched, brutalized
And kicked and choked
Than be called a “cunt”
For ten hours straight
No, I don’t like to get punched
However, I’d rather get punched
Than be called a “cunt”
Yes, I do get my feelings
Gravely hurt by being called
A “cunt” for ten straight hours
My husband is a light weight
The moment he drinks any alcohol
Then he becomes incensed
And begins to call his
Mom and I “cunts”
After a pattern of being called
A “cunt” every day then
One understand the gravitas
Of the insane alcoholic brain
The insane alcoholic brain
Is cowardly, incensed
And insane
Literally, it’s been explained to me
Alcoholics are insane people
Okay.
Insanity is what I’m living in
I didn’t know the Highland Park,
St. Paul, MN alcoholics
Were so insane
And entitled
Mostly Highland Park is
Centered around teen
Alcoholism and cocaine
So by the time
These teens turn 21
They’re already insane
And their brain development
Is young so they’re already
Hormonally insane
Drunkard teens
And people in their
Early twenties are
Brain damaged and insane
I know first hand
The alcoholic teens
And alcoholic twenty something
Call me “crazy”
Because I hold different
Opinions than my husband
And because I find
It incredibly inappropriate
To constantly be under the age
Of 21 and try to seduce
An old 55 year old drunk
The alcoholic teens
And alcoholic twenty something
Call me “crazy”
Because I don’t thinks it’s okay
To be sloppy drunk every night
Yes, I’m terrified of
Getting severely punched
I’ve become so terrified
I yelp like a kicked dog
Every time my alcoholic
Husband gets right into my
Face and grimaces
And places a fist in my face
I now yelp and squeal
Without getting hit
Because the very threat of
Getting hit has traumatized me
Not ever before have I been more
Scared in my life than
I am now
My goal is to walk away with
My brains intact
However, the struggle is real
I get beat up by white people
And all other white people let
It happen then they call me
A “liar” and “crazy”
Except I live by a live-feed
So everything is video recorded
Yes, I know exactly how
George Floyd felt
In his final eight minutes of death
I do
I know what it’s
Like to be held face down on a pillow
While my husband’s knee digs
Deeper and further into my spine
While he punches me on the sides
Of my ribs
The seconds seem like hours
And you have to hold your breath
While one struggles to get free
From being face down on a pillow
And shoved and forced to swallow pillow
Yes, I’ve been beat up so much
I’m actually finally scared
No matter what,
I don’t or I’m not able
To shake off the feeling
I’m only seconds from getting
Choked, punched or kicked
Or dragged by the hair
So a type of fear
Has settled deep into my bones
The reason why I can’t stop
Being afraid is
Because a surprise attack
Is always a threat
Well, at least I don’t get hit, punched, kicked, choked or my hair pulled.
Whew!
Now, I have to content with daily ten hours of being called a “cunt,” Slut,” and “whore” and “ugly” and “garbage” and “talentless” which I’m not any of these insults.
Personally, I don’t understand why race is such an issue in America because black people hate every race and aren’t ethical or fair.
Personally, I don’t understand why race is such an issue in America because white people hate every race and aren’t ethical or fair.
Three weeks ago, a woman at the top of The Monument on the Mississippi Boulevard on Summit Avenue saw and witness me get shoved and pushed on the cliffs.
Can you imagine it, a white woman witnessing a white man pushing and shoving an Indigenous woman down the cliff?
All of the rich white drunk teenagers and all of the twenty-something drunks think I’m an idiot for fighting with words to get my husband off my back and to respect me.
If I state my opinion then I get called a “cunt” for ten hours straight.
If I make a statement like please don’t call your mom a “cunt,” “slut,” or “whore” then I get the brunt of one drunk’s anger.
Each day my husband reminds me he can get any woman he wants and fuck anybody.
Seriously, anybody can do that except mature adults don’t talk like that.
Yes, I’m on raw nerves.
Each day by 5:00pm my husband has already downed about three to six margaritas and on his way to drown his abusive sorrows into an entire bottle of wine.
My husband is very charming and pretends as though he’s abused except I’m the one who literally takes the punches on the head which even punching someone in the head is illegal in athletics.
Personally, I’m learning alcoholics find any bit of excuse to get upset so they can have a reason to punch their domestic souses and then they blame the physical violence on the victimized spouse.
My spouse spent the entire month of April and May 2020 looking for teenagers he has crushes on.
No, I couldn’t make up any of this.
My husband is infatuated with teenagers and how much he’d like to fuck them.
Everyday it’s thrown in my face that I’m “ugly” and “fat” and my husband finds ways to make fun of me without actually taking responsibility for finding ways to make fun of me.
If I come across as “crazy” then fine because psychologists have explained to me everyone is “crazy,” however. Not everyone is insane.
My husband is literally insane because each day he finds a way to get severely drunk and if I so much as say “hello” to anyone of the opposite sex then I get punched or severely verbally abused.
If anyone ever has a crush on me then I get severely punched or verbally abused.
You can’t win with an alcoholic.
An alcoholic doesn’t understand the extent to which they cause great discomfort, fear, humiliation and anxiety.
Yours Truly;
Gabriel
Wednesday, Monday 5, 2020
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(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish
Quotations)
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Dress Etiquette.
Dress.
Chapter 26.
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Hi. Hello.
Happy Wednesday!
Happy wellness!
Wear a mask. It’s the law.
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Bernie Sanders all the way!
(Please, write-in Bernie Sanders’s name into the ballot. Thanks!)
Bernie Sanders has my vote.
Ilhan Omar isn’t to be trusted because any anti-Semitic speech is any anti-Semitic speech.
Impeach Donald Trump.
Please, don’t give Donald Trump anymore air time.
Now, I’ll be voting for a one Mr. Joe Biden. Yep.
Undisclosed armies are militia and Americans’ Constitution reads by the 2nd Amendment to “bare arms” against any unknown entities known as “traitors of the state” because taxpayers are the majority two-thirds and we want to know what exactly our Constitutional dollars go towards so there better be Insignia which states “Police,” or “FBI” or “CDC” and so forth.
No, tear gas is not to be utilized against peaceful American demonstrators because “The Battle of Versailles” wasn’t exactly a battle more like en masse of starving French “commoners” went ahead and by right took over the palace and imprisoned the monarchy and brought the monarchy to the guillotine which is a blade to slice off the head at the neck. Yuck. Yikes.
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Present.
Here
Healthy as a Horse
Aside from small
Medical aspects
Such as
Poison Oak
Or a light cough
I feel stronger
And more beautiful
Than I have
Ever been in my life
COVID-19
Wear a Mask
America, let’s beat
This deadly
Pandemic
Let’s go.
I’m right here.
Right here
I’m always here.
America, knows I
Continue to write
In public for all of our sakes
Yes, I deserve a medal
For being a dedicated
Artist Citizen Writer
Even though my
Writing doesn’t pay
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No, I don’t know what happened?
Everything fell into place
The violence
Completely stopped
As of yesterday
We became one
My Husband
Sees me now
Ha, Ha, Ha
When we get happy
Then everybody else
Gets thrown off their game
The entire goal
Is to support couples
Couples are the
Back bone of America
Well, what a difference two years makes.
Seriously, we’ve been married for the past two years.
Yes, we’re married because we live together.
No matter what anyone says, living together is being married.
Our relationship has been turbulent at best.
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Weekly Psychological Tests
You pass the tests as I do
Yes, weekly I pass psychological written tests. I win.
Yep.
The exams are easy.
The written part is the most difficult aspect of the psychological tests to pass.
There’s nothing more imperative than to pass the written part of the psychological tests. The only way to pass the written portion of the psychological tests is to think like a writer. Yep. Be introspective, think, process, analyze, judge and correctly criticize no matter how harsh or disemboweled.
If one is off even by one word then the entire psychological evaluation is thrown off and one has to re-take the psychological tests so no one gets put in any mental institution because using swear words in a correct alliteration is to be quite intelligent.
No, saying the word, “fuck,” “fuck,” “fuck,” or “bitch,” “bitch,” “bitch” isn’t sane rather utilizing swear words in the correct order and correct context and alliteration is more important than “swear screaming” like the mentally who repeat the same swear word again and again which is rather monotonous.
Look, I know the rules to civilization and I follow them to the letter because there’s times when women can candidly speak their truth without getting into much trouble without ever coming across as simply insane rather as a gorgeous women who can do swearing lectures and such swearing lectures are quite gorgeous to be a witness to because someone is taking the time to ensure the mature endeavor of another.
Yes, I’m quite lucky to be able to pass all weekly psychological tests for the past two decades otherwise my white Ivy league Harvard psychologist parents will be the first ones to put me in a mental institution therefore even when my parents have gone up against me then other psychologists have taken over and entire teams of psychologists have passed me as someone to be “free” because I’m someone who proves to be a whole and well adjusted woman and quite intelligent because I have empathy and I care what happens to all people plus I’m ethical and just and fair therefore anyone in any room understands I’m the safest person in the room with the great interest of the entire body of people rather than only the beautiful or rich or the loud and obnoxious.
The written portion of the psychological test is the most imperative because such written tests don’t hide anything therefore one’s cognizant and comprehensive skills are put to the test especially since writing “shows” everything.
Writing doesn’t talk.
Writing shows an entire picture of what’s really going on because writing is quite transparent.
The only difficulty with written tests is the mere fact such written psychological tests don’t give any leeway.
All one can do for the written portion of the psychological test is to get it right or not at all.
Each week I take my administered psychological tests, I pass the entire tests because I’m a writer and writers are here to think and process and analyze and greatly criticize.
Look, the main difference between mental illness and no mental illness is whether people are short tempered without any provocation and if people take personal offense to everything and/or if people contently do the same process over and over with the same result and not any new positive solutions.
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Yes, I gave up fighting
For my rights as
A woman
Yes, I have decided
Not to get
Stressed out
Yes, I’ve decided
To live and
Learn to control
My stress levels
No matter how rude
Or obnoxious or harassing
Anybody else might be
Yes, I was chosen above all
Other women to be here
Other women don’t seem
To like my happiness
Yours Truly;
Gabriel